Sometimes you need indulgence


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I am going through a difficult stage in my life. I am doing my best to balance everything that is going on….working, looking after three children, studying for a psychology degree, helping my son get back to full fitness after his serious rta, juggling finances and feel like I am loosing the battle. On top of all this I am now having to go to Court on Thursday because my ex husband displays poor judgment and has put our children at risk. As they say….it never rains it pours.

I had so much on, something had to give. I am now signed off work with anxiety. I did nt realise I was suffering from anxiety until my doctor diagnosed me.

At the moment I am taking the time to chill out and to engage in as many enjoyable activities as possible. As I love yoga I began to search for a retreat. Since I watched Eat, Pray, Love I have become rather obsessed with Bali, and just out if interest did a search for retreats there. I have fallen in love with Bali Goddess Retreats. They offer yoga retreats, fabulous food, amazing accompdation and the option to take part in other activities such as visiting elephant sanctuary, surfing, cycling as well many other options (12 on offer to be exact) Additionally lots of pampering treatments are available.

The retreat appears to have the balance right here, they state they offer healthy food but they are nt obsessive or restrictive. They realise life is about striking that balance and sometimes being able to indulge! To find out the cost you need to contact the retreat directly. I am pretty sure it is out of my price range but nonetheless I wanted to write about it as it is a place one day that I want to visit. I also love the idea of solo travelling and believe this could be an ideal spot. I will get to you one day Bali

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B.

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Travel for Spiritual Growth and Enlightenment

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I long to travel. I have 11 years to save. I will be 45. My youngest child will be 16, and if they wish they can travel with me. I will be going whether i travel alone, with my children, a partner or friend. This is something I have to do. I am drawn to India as I feel I need to travel there to connect to my deeper spiritual self. I want to go there to experience the culture, food, sights, attend temples and a yoga retreat.

One of the places I must visit is Taj Mahal, for the sheer beauty of the building. It is a must see once in my life time.

On my travels I plan on spending some time in an Ashram. This is something I must do. I am not certain as to how long I will stay. I wish to go and stay for as long as I feel necessary. There are many Ashrams to choose from but as I was truly inspired by Eat Pray love I plan on visiting the on

“The ashram Gilbert visited, therefore, is Gurudev Siddha Peeth where Muktananda is buried”.
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“Gurudev Siddha Peeth, the first Siddha Yoga ashram, is a “shakti peeth”, a center of spiritual energy. It is situated in the historic and sacred Tansa Valley, in Maharashtra, India. The ashram is imbued with the spiritual power of the Siddha Yoga Gurus and the countless hours of sadhana and spiritual practice that Siddha Yogis have performed there.”   http://www.siddhayoga.org.in/Gurudev_Siddha_Peeth.html

I am not sure if this will be possible as I have began to look into how you are able to attend the Ashrams and there is an application process you must go through.  I feel a Yoga Ashram is best for me, given my commitment to yoga practice.  I also believe it is through yoga that I myself is developing spiritually.

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I also plan to visit some destinations in India which are described as the most spiritual in the country.  since this trip for me is about developing my own spirituality it seems fitting that I visit these if possible.

Bodhgaya is the most important Buddhist pilgrimage place in the world. Located in the state of Bihar, it’s here that Lord Buddha became enlightened during intense meditation under a Bodhi tree. The exact spot is now marked by the sprawling Mahabodhi Temple complex. The town is also home to dozens of Buddhist monasteries. Those who are interested will find plenty of meditation and Buddhism courses and retreats on offer.  This is a place which will definately be on my list.  I cannot visit India without missing out this place.

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The Ancient Haridwar (the “Gateway to God”) it is one of the seven holiest places in India, and one of the oldest living cities. Located at the foothills of the Himalayas in Uttarakhand, it’s particularly popular with Hindu pilgrims who come to take a dip in the holy waters of the fast flowing Ganges River and wash away their sins. Unlike Varanasi, the water is clean and fresh in Haridwar. The evening ceremony Ganga Aarti, a daily ritual once the sun goes down, looks fabulous.

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Another definate must see for me due to my ties with yoga is Rishikesh- the birthplace of yoga, is a popular place to come and meditate, do yoga, and learn about other aspects of Hinduism. It’s situated on the banks of the Ganges River, surrounded by hills on three sides, not far from Haridwar in Uttarakhand. Rishikesh lures those seeking knowledge and peace with its numerous ashrams and yoga institutes. It’s particularly popular with spiritual seeking foreigners, while Haridwar holds more significance for Hindu pilgrims.

Amritsar was founded in 1577 by Guru Ram Das, the fourth guru of Sikhs. It’s the spiritual capital of the Sikhs and gained its name, meaning “Holy Pool of Nectar”, from the body of water around the Golden Temple. The exquisite Golden Temple attracts pilgrims from all over the world. It looks particularly arresting at night when it’s beautifully lit up, with its imposing pure gold dome illuminated.

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I have this ‘knowing’ that in order for me to grow as a person I need to travel to expand my mind.  It is something which is built inside of me.  I know that I will travel at some point, and when the time is right the opportunities will present themselves.  Until then I use the time to plan where I will go, and can only dream of my up and coming adventures.

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January…..a month to retreat

No one loves a party more than I do.  I have not had a weekend off from socialising since February last year.  Add all these parties to festivals and club nights as well as the obligatory wedding celebrations and birthday meals you could say I have had a pretty full on year.  In all honesty though this is how I like it!  I am lucky that I have such a wide circle of friends.  For this reason it is very rare that nothing is going on and sometimes I often struggle to fit everything in.  However, It has not always been this way.

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Following my divorce I was often left sat in on my own with nothing to do.  Majority of my other friends were all either happily married or in relationships, off doing ‘couple-y’ things.  It was difficult, especially when all I wanted to do was go out, socialise and forget the misery I was currently enduring.  So I had to take things into my own hands!  Luckily for me, I do not find socialising difficult so I used to sit in on a Saturday night with a bottle of wine and once I had finished that I used to head into town on my own and see who was out that I knew.  I often would make up some story that I had been out with friends and I could not find them.  As it was often late, around 12am, most people were drunk enough to not really think much about whether my story was actually legit or not! So more often than not I would be able to have a full night out with my new ‘friends’.  I have met so many people in this way.  You should not be afraid to meet people in this way.  At first I felt that I was being an inconvenience but what I actually realised was I did not have enough confidence in the human race.  When our guards are down and we are out having fun most of us are actually very nice people!

The past year has been amazing, I have attended two hen weekends, two weddings, an awesome festival, numerous club nights, lots of birthdays and other celebrations, a holiday with friends abroad and a holiday with the children.  I have not had a free weekend since last February.

This Christmas has been a double edged sword.  I have had a lovely time and spent time with family and friends but Christmas day for me is always difficult.  Trying to keep everyone happy when you have to also accommodate the ex, when he is particularly difficult sometimes, is the hard thing.  You cannot help it, but it affects the day, especially when you cannot wake up on Christmas day with your babies watching their excited faces opening their presents.  It also highlights to me the people who are no longer here….in particular my grandma, whom I was very close to and miss every day.  In any event though it is truly the party season with lots of parties and drinking.  This was topped off with the best New Years Eve ever which did not end until New Years Day.

For this reason, it is time for me to take a little time to take stock of all that has happened over the last year.  I have grown so much as a person.  I have pushed boundaries and at the age of 33 actually feel like I am finding who I am, and I make no apologies for who I am either.  I am so grateful for my life and the people in it, old and new.  For the next few weeks I am going to be nice to myself, take time out of the party scene, detox, take walks and spend time in nature. Eat lovely food and watch films and read books.  I have loved every minute and I will miss this party lifestyle over the next few weeks but I need to recuperate and recover, I want to be fighting fit for the upcoming festival and party season and I know come the last Saturday of January is the day that it will all start again.

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I am so excited for what 2014 has to offer me, and at the time though I thought my divorce was a terrible thing, it was in fact the opposite as I have been allowed the space to grow and I once again feel like myself, the adventurous, courageous and confident female I was before.  No matter how difficult life gets, keep going, see it as an adventure, as there is always something great around the corner.

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B.