Some days she finds it so hard to motivate herself….it can be past eleven before she can drag herself out of bed. She has little in her life which seems to inspire her but when she gets a sudden wave she knows she has to run with it, because it never lasts long. There is not much that seems to keep her interested. She is just floating along, in second gear, no up no downs, no excitement….almost feels like nothing…
It has not always been this way, she remembers the days when she felt a tingle of excitement at daily things which happened in her life, everything was colourful. She was happy and despite difficulties she always got through it. Sometimes she actually enjoyed the obstacles. She cannot pinpoint the day where she became stuck in second gear. She does not feel bad enough to be in first gear…crawling along at 10 mph, or worst still at a complete stop. But second gear, lets face it she is coasting. Coasting through life.
What happened to the girl that always flew through life at 60 miles per hour, living life in the fast lane. Full of ambition, knowing that what she wanted in life she would get….
That girl has not disappeared she is still here, and she is desperately trying to shift back up in gears. She is assessing her life and re-focusing her energies on what she wants. She will be back achieving what she wants in life, it may just take some time.
I WILL NOT GIVE UP